Some day, I'm going to be sitting in my own chair, in my own house, drinking my own beer, thinking my own thoughts, after working a job I can stand doing for 40 hrs out of my week. I hope that day comes soon 'cause I'm losing the willpower and drive to survive and make things better for myself and I haven't even accomplished anything yet. I'm trying to get back into computers because that's where the money is at, but I'm not having much luck yet. The headhunter that has been getting me jobs just questioned my abilities from the last job I did for him. 4 out of 6 people they hired for that job quit, but I toughed it out to get in better standing with TekSystems and now I learn that those damn 20 yr old unorganized punks that ran my last job said I don't work well without supervision. Where the hell they got that from is beyond me. I put up with their unprofessionalism and lack of instruction without complaint and worked my ass off. I really want to find them and kick their asses. There's a possible help desk job interview coming up, but it just sucks that abominations like my last gig have to happen with no show for my patience or effort and even fuck up future possibilities. I really just want to say fuck you to my imaginary person that is somehow responsible for the way this society works. I wish I could find something that I could do to survive that removes everyone else from any decisions that affect me. I'm a damn good worker that's smart, easy going, and reliable. Why is so hard to find a decent job? I'm currently working at a Vet clinic as a tech, but I cannot stand having to take shit from doctors who think they are gods. I just keep holding in my rage, smiling, and doing the best that I can do until I can find something better. My frustration is a big reason I never blog anymore.... afterall, who wants to read whiny crap like this everyday.